On going back to workI may be going back to work. Well not maybe- I am. I just don't know exactly when. Earlier this month I interviewed for a position and secured the job. I am having so many mixed feelings about this- it's unreal. On the one hand I really would like to bring home a pay check. This would help out a lot with fun things like cute new clothes and vacations. These things aren't necessities because thank God he has already provided for us.
Going back to work would give me a chance to be someone else besides a mom and a wife. As result of staying home I believe I have lost some of who I am. When my son goes to bed at night I often sit and do nothing- it's hard being a stay at home mom y'all. I often plan to do things like work on his baby book or wipe down his play mat but as soon as he goes to sleep it's a race to shower, dress, and eat in a matter of minutes.
Then there is the issue of child care. He is on the waiting list a t two places but I have yet to start interviewing any prospective nannies. I don't want just anyone to care for my child- I need to find the best childcare possible and this isn't an easy feat.
I used to be a more consistent blogger- sharing so much of me and chronicling my life to be remembered always now, I'm lucky if I can edit just one picture for Wordless Wednesday. I think going back to work will help me manage time and prioritize better. Knowing that I don't have 'all-day' to do something will definitely help me to get things done!
Even after all the pros and cons are weighed out I would miss my son terribly.
Am I the only person not really feeling Chevron? I think if it were on my walls it'd make me dizzy. Am I weird?
On getting things done
In honor of my birthday (4 months ago) (I think I mentioned his already) I tried to put together a 30 before 30 list. It went something like this...
Thing is- I couldn't think of 30 things! I've already started ticking things off the list and getting started on the ones that take time but I really want to accomplish 30 different things... help!
On being a SAHM
There are times when being a SAHM really overwhelms me. Especially when I read about other SAHM's and their wonderful adventures with their toddler. I'm afraid to step foot in the light of day because he may have an embarrassing meltdown or I may drive 20 minutes and get where we're going only to discover he's fallen asleep in the backseat and now I don't want to wake him cause then he'll be cranky which will lead to an embarrassing meltdown.
I often wondering if I'm "doing it right". I'd like for my son to be well adjusted, smart, and fun-loving so I try to work with him on those things. When he had his 15 month well visit (at 16 months) I shared with her my concerns of 'what he knows'. He knows all his major body parts (hair, head, eyes, nose, mouth, tongue, teeth, tummy, fingers, hands, arms, legs, toes, feet, privates), he can identify objects and word (with flash cards) and has an okay vocabulary. The doctor told me that I shouldn't panic if he doesn't know calculus by his next well visit, But seriously- how am I supposed to know what he should at this point?? Sometimes I feel he is at a learning disadvantage because he doesn't go to daycare. And then every once in a while I come across someone who declares how smart he is and exclaims that their similar in age fmaily member can't do that... I don't know what to do!
On boy's fashion
Why can't they make cute things like this for boys??
I enjoy dressing my little guy up (especially in themed entire on holidays- while he lets me do it) but finding these things for boys is difficult. Really makes me wish I knew how to sew.
On filing taxes
Back in 2010 the IRS allowed for deductions for breastfeeding supplies on your taxes. We've never had enough deductions to list individually but if you do and you purchased brestfeeding supplies last year (or plan to this year)- you can. Yes, that one sentance had been sitting in my drafts for a year.
Furthermore, I really dislike this time of year! My husband's alter ego makes it really difficult and I always dread the gathering of the paper work and the money it costs to pay someone to fill out the forms for you. In recent year's I've done our taxes myself and I loathe it. I can't wait for this to be done.
And here ends my mish mash of thoughts.