Overwhelmed

My post today was supposed to be a few things.

1.       It was supposed to be posted earlier

2.       It was supposed to be about another baby prep class

3.       It was supposed to be about my recent baby purchase and lastly,

4.       It was supposed to include some stuff about my weekend.

So clearly I have a lot going on and quite frankly it’s a little overwhelming. Truth be told I get overwhelmed with my to do list about once every 4 to 6 weeks so this is nothing new. However, once you throw in pregnancy induced exhaustion and laziness this amplifies this overwhelmed feeling. My husband asked me to write and everything down and we will begin to cross everything off together (I<3 him!). While I would love to start this list right here, right now- you might stop following me forever.

I'm so overwhelmed, I keep mixing up the days of me and hubby's engagement anniversary!

So, tomorrow we celebrate. 4 years ago tomorrow I had no idea what I was in store for. Hopefully I can capture this story again to share with you all. In the meantime- I panic... and create another list...

The incident #2

I guess no pregnancy is without incident. I'm having way more than I hoped- unrealistic: yes, too much to ask:no. I'm sure only 2 incidents is great for those who have gone through more, but I just like for everything to be drama free. As I browse through my previous posts to remind you of the first one, I realize that I promised to tell you about it later and I never did. I'm not sure if it's worth even bringing up at this point because clearly all is well and clearly I need to make a list of things I promise to inform you of later because I think I've done this at least twice since.

Last night I had a melt down. It kind of wasn't really pregnancy related, but definitely affected it nonetheless. Over the memorial day weekend a friend I want to high school with was attacked at a well known beach. He died Sunday morning. This has been weighing very heavy on my heart. I honestly haven't talked to him since graduation but we've kept tabs on each other via facebook. I mean he knew I had graduated college, gotten married, etc. and I knew he was trying to get his music career started. He had recorded several tracks (I think more like a whole CD) with is group and was trying to do big things- he also recently had a little baby no more than 7 months old. When I found out (via facebook) I was shocked and very disappointed. I can't fathom why people feel the need to be so brutal to others. I don't know the entire circumstances surrounding the attack (nor do I care to know) but it didn't garner death. There are some people who I absolutely cannot stand to come in contact with... so I don't. I'd never consider taking some one's life... even if they did the unthinkable.

So last night a mutual friend posted an article that tells how the suspects were apprehended (shortly following the incident), in jail (held on $500,000 bail), and went to court recently (like yesterday) to be arraigned (I think). I read it and it bought me some peace that his family now knows that the ones who are responsible for their pain is in police custody and will be punished for the pain they are causing. In light of this I insisted upon finding our senior class trip pictures. We went to six flags and it was one of the last times we ALL took pictures together- apart from graduation. I found them and he was in them (of course he was that's why I wanted to find them) at first it bought back a lot of memories. I don't remember too much about that day (which is why I HAVE to take pictures at every event I go to) except what's in the pictures - like everyone had to get a crazy hat and the group picture we took in said hats. I also needed a shower (more about why later). When I got in the shower I was flooded with feelings of pain, sorrow, and grief. I was bullied in childhood and so was my brother and I know how much it affected us (my brother had it worse than I did) and this killing is sort of a form of bullying and I couldn't take it anymore. I instantly felt really bad for any pain that I've caused anyone- whether it wasn't saying hi to the new kid in the lunch room or yelling at someone who cut me off while driving (dramatic, I know) and then I had the most intense pain in my belly.

Holy crap! My feelings were affecting my child and I had to pull it together right away. I managed to get out the shower and go lay down. Soon after my husband found me and comforted me. The pain continued off and on. I knew I had to pull it together and get my mind off of it. It's not that my friend no longer mattered but I couldn't let my little one suffer (if he or she was). The baby was squirming the entire time so s/he was "ok" but I had to stop the madness. I asked my husband to read to me about the baby. So he did. We read about the 27th week and what's happening with me and the baby's growth. The whole ordeal lasted about 30 minutes from the time I got out the shower. If it had gone any longer I was calling the doctor. Why didn't I do that in the first place? Because I "knew" what the problem was and I would have just gotten more worked up if she had said 'go to the hospital' thoughts of pre-term labor, emergency c-sections, and all other stuff flooded my brain so I could do only one thing: pull it together!

After laughing about how my pregnancy book told me to unload all my problems on my spouse to help me sleep at night, I was better. Much better. He was there for me us and he has a freaking cold! What a wonderful dad he will be :)

This morning I woke up to baby kicks in the belly and feeling prayerful for my friend's family. When I get home tonight, I'm putting the pictures away- for now. Later on when I can handle it, I will scan them and post them on facebook so the rest of my classmates will be able to remember the good times we had with him.

This post started out as my weekly pregnancy progress update. I've now changed the title deleted all the pregnancy stuff and will repost it later. I just needed to put that out there.

Shameless Plug!

So it's time for shameless plugs!

Remember how I told you that my hubby has an alter ego?? Well it's about time I introduced him. He's Gemineye (yes, that's spelled correctly) and he's actually pretty hot stuff... well at least in the poetry world. He has tons of accolades, TV appearances, yada, yada, yada. I'm pretty sure you'd like his work, even if you are not into poetry or spoken word and I'm not being biased... see for yourself:

Okay, now to the point. He's been nominated for the 2011 National Poetry Awards for the categories of 'Best Poetry Performance' and 'Spoken Word album of the Year'!!! I'm pretty sure I'm more excited than he is :) Voting begins today and ends on June 20th. I would appreciate your support in voting for him if you can. And if you really liked the video you can friend him on facebook and/or become a fan of Gemineye and read/see/hear more and the album that garnered the album of the year award can be purchased via Pay Pal (I'm still trying to get him to sell it on iTunes).

*I almost forgot to tell you where to vote*

You need to go to the national poetry awards website and click the NPA voting link at the top. Now I really have no idea if you can only submit one vote period or vote once per day, but if you voted just once it would be enough... actually if you voted on your work computer and then on your home computer that would help too, lol!

Thanks for helping!

Blogger's Block

Once again I feel like I have Blogger's Block. and once again, I have a million posts in my head and no way to convey them.

That is one of the very reasons I started blogging (and trust me there's a lot). I think writing is a lost art form and badly needs to be found. There was a time where stationary sets and fine pens were a must and  thank you card came from the heart. Now in the days of email and text- it's all fallen by the wayside. I have no problem with the evolution of technology, but as a professional I still think it is very important to be able to write well. I can't believe some of the "shorthand" that the younger kids use and it has me wondering what kind of grades they are getting in English. I understand that their young minds are able to switch back and forth between the two and I use text-speak too- but good grief!

It also doesn't help that I don't get much sleep at night. Between allergies, the occasional heartburn, and trying to find a comfortable way to sleep with my baby- nights aren't the most glorious for me. That in turn makes for cloudy brain days. So if over the next couple of days my posts seem scattered- you know why.

I'm also trying to become more baby organized. You know I still don't have a registry! This is kind of shocking for me because I feel like I have been researching baby products for a while now but when it comes to put those things on paper- I forget everything I've come to learn about what baby products would make parenting easier. Couple that with trying to decide if we are going to move or not so I can start designing a nursery and it makes for a very frustrated "Mrs.".


***SIGH***

Congrats!

To my brother and all the graduates, congratulations!

Freshman bow down to you, Sophomores fear you, Juniors want to be you! Make 'em scream, make 'em run... you're the Class of double 1!

I love you :)

To-do: make a to-do list

I'm a list person. I work better off to-do lists. When I see what needs to be done, I remain focused and for the most part stay on track. Plus there is this great feeling of accomplishment once everything is crossed off.

To combat my slackerness I'm making a to do list. First up- Register for childbirth classes. I'm a newbie at this so I need all of the info I can get. Don't get me wrong I appreciate the seasoned mom advice, but I have a feeling that these people are leaving out the important stuff. So I'm we're going. I am taking the hubby along with me.

Number 2: Get a clue about maternity leave. I have heard so many stories and nothing concrete (hearsay is becoming a common theme here :/)

Number 3: I suppose we should register for some baby stuff. I find this to be a bit overwhelming as well. It looks like it may get easier with the 'Baby Bargains' book so we will see. I am assuming with the number of baby showers coming up in my family (first one is next weekend!) I have some time for this but people keep asking me so I am guessing they are trying to budget?

Number 4: Get some new living arrangements. Yes, we want to move; yes, I am 21 weeks; No, I will only be carrying pillows.

Number 5: babymoon? While I think this term is a marketing ploy (but what isn't?!) and people have been taking antepartum vacations for years without a babymoon package- I like the concept. I would love for me and my husband to getaway for a while and enjoying being a family of two. I have no clue where we would go but I am not fond of leaving the country right now in my current condition.

So much to do- so little time. We'll see how much of this gets crossed off before September 8. It's likely to grow before it gets finished.

What Am I?

Here's a Tuesday puzzle for ya!

I start with the letter "e" and end with the letter "e". I usually contain one letter, but I am not the letter "e".

What am I?

Lifesavers anyone?

No, not the candy. But, every once in a while you need a lifesaver. Something that keeps you of sound mind and body. Yesterday my boss's boss gave me my lifesaver:

I think Rita and I are gong to be bestie's this summer :)

Living for the weekend!

Not only do I love that song (by the O'Jay's), I think it's my Friday theme song. I love weekends because it's a chance for me to actually do the the things that I want to do or sometimes I get to just RELAX. The work week is so full of appointments, projects, and to-do's that time flies by and you're exhausted all the time. Okay, I may be alone in this thought but oh well! I still LOVE weekends.

My weekends are usually filled with a bunch of to-do's but 98% of the time- it's something that I enjoy doing. This weekend I plan to cook the corned beef that I was supposed to for St. Patrick's day, finish up some cleaning that I didn't get to (there's that 2%) and we are going to a dinner party to celebrate my friends birthday! I also need to get to Buy, Buy, Baby and pick up the Snoogle (notice they have it $5 cheaper than BRU and I have coupons!). I am hoping that will help with my comfort level and sleep issues at night.

Today it's supposed to get up to 70 degrees where I am and that makes me very happy :) I am so done with winter. Hope you have a great weekend!

It's National Pancake Day!

I didn't get to celebrate today, but you still have time to. IHOP is giving away free short stacks of pancakes until 10 pm. I'll continue sitting on my couch catching up on sleep while you all enjoy free pancakes.  Next Tuesday is fat Tuesday- the pregame to the lent season. I won't be fasting this season because I wouldn't be the only one fasting but the lent season is always interesting in my church.

In other news- Wendy Williams is going to be on the upcoming season of Dancing with the Stars! I love the show and am a fan of Wendy Williams.  There are a few others I'm interested to see this season- Romeo, Kendra, Kristie Alley, and Sugar Ray Leonard. I'm interested to see how everyone does. I really think this show is a popularity contest- but entertaining nonetheless.

Lastly, tomorrow is my one week blogiverssary!!! I know that's not much compared to the likes of those attending the blogher conferences but I'm proud of what I've accomplished thus far. I feel a lot better at times being able to vent. My husband has been great but I'm sure he's tired of all the baby related references. Thanks for being my outlet- even if it's only one of you so far :)

Love,

The Mrs.